Transformation Fear
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(Writing for 2nd Feb)
John had always seen at others participating in debate, racing events, recitation and other school competition and always thought that he would be better than the participants. In the mind he visualized that he would be the winner in those events. But the hesitation and fear of public appearance and stage fright prevented him from participating. The fear got reinforced in his mind with more and more non participation and thinking of himself as winner. The contrast thought and action made a huge mark which was almost indelible.
His fear continued from school to college and till early part of his job until one day a thought struck to him that he should do something which he think he cannot do. The trigger of this thought came from a mail in his company where it was asked to participate in a skit on the annual day of his company. He found himself on both sides while contemplating whether to participate in the event or not. Most of the times he found himself more comfortable being on the other side and in non participation, which any way was his inbuilt characteristic. This time he wanted to challenge himself and go against the comfort thought and comfort zone. While struggling with the thoughts of giving his name for the skit, he found his finger clicking on the send button of the drafted mail which he typed for participation in the skit. His heart skipped a beat when he clicked on send button instead of delete on his office blackberry.
Within a month after couple of rehearsals, he performed the skit on the annual day with other participants. The skit was very well appreciated and John’s performance was the cherry on the cake. People couldn’t imagine that a person whose image was of introvert could perform so well. He won a lot of accolades and his colleagues and other people remembered him with his role. This boosted his confidence and broke his image of non participant to participant in his mind. He started trying himself into new avenues like learning new languages, playing guitar, running and many other new things. His overall outlook started changing.
You need to come out of your comfort zone. You should try some small things which you think you cannot do. That brings a different perspective in life. The nervous energy in trying new things helps and once you are into that activity that brings confidence. You will get into a habit of trying new things and coming out of stagnancy. There is a lot to explore within you. You will be amazed to know about the new you. Its a never ending experience. Till the time you have the last breath in you, you can do anything and everything. You need to rise above yourself and the fear of transformation will slowly be gone from within you.
