after almost 2 years

I am writing in this blog after almost 2 years. There is so much uncertainty and volatility in me. I am not sure what do I want out of life. When I see India winning world cup, I wish I should have been a cricketer. When I see a good movie, I wish I should have been an actor. I see myself always wanting to be one or the other person. Why not myself? Life is confusing if you think it like that else it is simple. Last week I was attending a training program - 7 habits of highly effective people. There was an exercise where we were told to write "how do you want yourself to be remembered? Or what is the purpose of your life?". I scribbled for around 15 minutes. I was amused to find that it was difficult for me to find what do I want out of life. I wrote I want to be an entrepreneur and generate employment and spread happiness. The question from the instructor was howq much time are you devoting for those activities. I was stunned to find it was almost zero. So what do I need to do. I still don't have any plan.
But I think is it necessary to have a plan. If you are happy and enjoying your life, it should be good enough. There is sop much top learn from life. Its never ending experience.