Raw thoughts.........Rupturing out of mind

Hi,
Writing a post again. Since the last couple of days, I am getting the urge to write something. So, here I come. I am thinking of writing regularly on this blog. Lets see how it goes. I want to throw out vent of emotions from me. I am finding it hard to find a way to express how I feel. I think and I do hope that writing is one of the ways to ease out on the emotions. And while writing these words, I am feeling good. Words are very important in one's life. It can make or break someone's life. I feel that word is the basic structure of life, atleast since the day a kid start understanding it. A lot can be depicted about a person by listening and analyzing the words he uses. Words are powerful. Even the unspoken words are powerful. Just words in your self talk or imagination do shape you and your life.

The same questions come to my mind again and again. What do I have to do in life? What am I supposed to do? Confused......Still trying to find out the direction.

One realization - I do love challenges and I become more productive when there is some change or challenge.

Let me try to find the list of things which if I do will make me happy and the things which actually makes me happy and also the things which made me happy.

Present
1. Listening good songs
2. Watching Movies
3. Listening to the Secret
4. Spending time with Shaurya
5. Gym

Future (atleast thats what I think)
1. Learn Guitar
2. Learn Swimming
3. Join Toastmaster Club
4. Write a book
5. Start a small startup
6. Join Theater
7. Do an executive MBA from IIMA
8. Enriching my vocabulary


Past
1. Studying and competing in class till class 10th.
2. When I got 82% in class 10th (95% in Maths)
3. When I acted on stage in the company function
4. When I was in love and was courting my wife, the then friend
5. When I got my first job in Infosys

Ok, there might be and I would say there must be many more items in the list. But at 1:32 am in the night, I could write only these. I would pursue the list of future and while continue doing the things which make me happy.

Ultimately what matters is being happy. Everything is waste if you are not enjoying your life and I think one should keep checking his list and find out what are the things which make him happy.

I would go to sleep now. My eyes want to go into dreams now.
Good Night.